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The Mother's Day Gift You Should've Given

In six minutes, Mother's Day will usher herself in. She may show up wearing her finest or rockin' holey yoga pants and tired feet. No one knows. Either way, she'll command the room.

I know I'll spend the day with my kids. They'll do their best to please and take care of me; especially my oldest! She loves me hard in spite of my parental and human failures. I'm truly fortunate. It'll be a Happy Mother's Day for sure!

I'm excited for the many women who will be honored with colossal doses of love and appreciation. We damn sure deserve it. Women keep the fabric of existence woven together. 

This Mother's Day (overall) will be a bit different for me. No matter who I may spend time with or what things I may receive, I've already given the ultimate gift to myself. I've given myself permission.

Permission to be great, to be magnificent, to live an extraordinary life!

I thought I'd already done that. I thought I was living freely but whenever I do self-inventory, I find areas in which I'm holding back. I find areas in which I'm slacking. Believe it or not, I also find myself afraid to succeed in one way or the other. 

Sounds ridiculous right? Trust me, it is a problem more people face than will admit to it! However, when looking at the big picture, who really has time to be hindered by fear?

Have you thought about it? How short life is despite the hardships and struggles? How much time passes when you're not paying attention? 

I've thought about it often; now more than ever. Family members I've been around my entire life are dying or succumbing to illness. Babies I witnessed in their mother's womb are now graduating, marrying, and having kids. I am getting older and whether I view that positively or negatively, it's happening.

The permission I mentioned, don't you dare toss it in the cliche' bin and dismiss it. I'm ready to LIVE. I'm ready to do the things I've put off for no good reason. I'm ready to make the calls, buy the tickets, approach the strangers, write the letters, contact the companies, take the classes, start the business.

 Are you hearing me though?

There are far too many times I've been afraid to do/say something. I regret each of them. Yes, I understand that my past has molded me into the woman I am today. I understand that had I made different decisions, I may not have the family I have now. I don't want to change my past but I'm still pissed that I missed opportunities. I'm haunted by the what ifs.

I refuse to carry the same load at the end of my life. I don't want the burden of regret. I'm choosing right now to die peacefully in my bed a very old but healthy woman. I will have seen, heard, and done all that I desired to do. There will be no adventure lingering that was in my power to experience.

I, a mother of two and life partner, am redefining my womanhood. I am redefining my life. This journey is the legacy I'm leaving for my children, grandchildren, and anyone interested in paying attention. The decision to fully and magnificently honor God's life-gift to me, is my rebirth. 

I hope you'll join me. I pray you'll support me. I ask that you hold me accountable. Although I don't want to disappoint you, the worst injustice would be to fail me.

What about you? I urge you to redefine your life. I encourage you to create the life you want but that's as far as I go. The rest is up to you. Only you can give yourself permission to be magnificent.

Let the living begin.

Happy Mother's Day btw. Did you see her step in? She showed up wearing what none of us expected.

How typical of a queen.


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